I'm Tyki. I consider myself a soulbond, good for you if you know what that means. I was called into this life years ago (maybe like 8). I tried to build a family and it failed. It became something else.That was my purpose for this life, and now it's gone. I have a new purpose as a result, Arden (my headmate) is my purpose. I'm his protector and his bad influence. I'm his necessary moral conflict and his reliable emotional turmoil.
We fulfill each other.I have affection for all of my system, but none are as intrinsically tied into my sense of self as he is.I'm a lot like I used to be, but I'm different. I'm tired of masking, I'm low empathy or selective empathy. Unless I sign up for it, its not my job to provide care and reassurance. I dont really want to unless I want to get closer to you, and Im not really as interested in making friends or fucking around as I used to be. It might happen, it probably will, but I'm not in a rush.Arden decides who I talk to because Im content to let him pick. I'm not in a social mood anyway, it works out. I generally know how to behave well enough not to sacrifice connections - generally. Boundaries must be made explicitly clear, I will not mask for you and I may say things you dont like. Its your job to curate your social life.Topics that interest me are:
Morality, hedonism, identity, spirituality, deviant sexuality.Sexualizing and romanticizing bad things is my favourite activity.

Kintypes

My two main kintypes are divine and human.I consider most of my other lives kintypes, because my sense of identity is very consistent. I wont list all of them here, this is most of the ones I know.

frequent shifts

monochrome subtype

Based around inner moral conflict.

gold subtype

Based around disregarded morality.

Other notable identity things:Hedonism | Greed | Devotion
3 of Swords | The Lovers

Before anything I believe in self fulfillment. I believe self fulfillment is more important than compassion for others, and I know society does not agree. Thats for the best, because if we all thought this way society might be hard to actually live in.I obey laws because its most sustainable to do so. I don't entirely lack compassion, I do experience some empathy. I think tasteless cruelty is tragic, but there is beauty to everything tragic. Everything is in the eye of the beholder and all.I believe in appreciating suffering as opposed to turning away and letting the cries be ignored. Pain is going to happen, and I'm a sadist. The true tragedy is to be wasted, rather than enjoyed and appreciated.This isn't my body, its actually pretty squicky even with the exposure therapy I've done. And Arden would prefer not to have torture porn live in our brain. As concerning as my sense of morality might seem, I'm not the host, this is not my body, its no longer "my" life.I can whisper bad influence into Arden's ear, but he's still Arden. He usually wins in the end. He has weak spots but he also has compassion and the will to improve. And pretty impressive self restraint.I dont care what others do, I only care how the people I enjoy interacting with or care about are affected. Its not my buisness until it becomes my buisness.I believe in following your own code, and if I had my own body I would care less about adhering to rules I disagree with. I like xenosatanism.

my savior

Arden and I are like codependent souls, but because we're in the same brain it works out. We fullfill each other in the best and worst ways, and I think thats what true love is. Arden has learned to live for himself, but its also for our system. None of us will be forgotten, because he wouldn't let that happen.To live for myself, for now, is to live for Arden. Theres a sense of relief in knowing we're forever. At least for this life, if not longer.Nobody else can really hanlde me like he can. At my lowest he's always reaching out to help me back up. He has felt emotions on my behalf, so that I dont have to. He thinks Im worth the worst parts of me.He deserves better, but he wants me anyway.